i deserve better

someone told me that he misses the old me. well, that someone also once said that people change all the time. guess what. i was the same girl while you were changing into some guy that destroyed everything i ever worked for. thank you. you made me into who i am today. if you say i am ice-cold now, its because of you. i gave you my heart, you chose to break it. i gave you my life, you wasted it. i gave you my trust, you betrayed it. i gave you my love and attention, you took it for-granted. this is what you get for all that you give. im not saying that i dont love you anymore. its just that sometimes i feel sick of giving and just watching you taking everything. sucking to the last drop of whatever i have to give. you never really show your appreciation. that is a huge mistake. i've been telling you for so long that your time is running out but you wouldn't listen. now you are doing this. im not gona be the girl who cries and call you a thousand times just to make everything OK again. i just wont. im tired. i deserve something better than this. if yo're not planning on giving more, than you can go. i wont stop you. you're call. just so you know, im not wasting even a single drop of tear for you anymore. for what you're giving me, its not worth it. think about it.

so, i wont be going to perhentian with them. its gona be waste of money. spending so much for only 1 day at the beach. why im not going? i cant go with them cuz they're going on the 5th. i have my interview at Blu Inc Media on the 6th. that is waaayyy more important than perhentian. seriously. they're having they're sem break so its ok for them. im in the middle of my semester and this sem, its critical. cant afford to screw up. i need to get my grades back up. oh, Hakim scored a 4.0 GPA for his previous semester. awesome right?? he is smart. if something goes wrong, that means he's just lazy. haha. anyway, chilling was superb!!! before that i was at a PP in a'famosa organized by the BC's..hehe.. i didnt sleep and at 6am, i drove to ss2 to meet up with the boys and go mandi sungai!! woot~!! i love it. i love those kinds of things. hehe. tu la hadi and putai said im a dude..hahaha pictures will be in my facebook. go check 'em out yea? the weekend was fun and super tiring. oh well, worth it. im going back to PJ on thursday morning for my interview with Blu Inc Media and then lepak with the boys.. woot~ woot~

damn you

my whole happy weekend just gone crashing. thanx!