Maizatul Jasmeen @ Kak Meen

To My Dearest Beloved Kak Meen,

Honestly, i miss you. alot. loads of shits happened between us. we got through so many of them and now, more shits are coming our way. i am sick and tired of it. i messed up. you messed up. we both screwed things up as i see it. but im gona make the first move to apologize for everything and since its raya, forgive me for everything i've said and done that might have hurt you or caused you pain. i love you as a sister. as far as i am concerned, you are never my friend or housemate. you are my elder sister. i know i screwed up here and there, but you know me right? like what you said, knowing me and my bullshits kan? just to let you know, i might have lied about a few things, but i never meant to hurt you. and i never lied when i said i love you. i miss haveing those nights where we'll talk about everything. i miss laughing our ass off on something stupid. i miss the way you're always able to finish off my sentences. i miss it when you can read my mind. most of all, i miss you. i know things will never be the same again between us. i even understand if we wont even be talking to each other. but i want you to remember that if you ever need anything, i am always here for you no matter what. you're always gona be my kak meen and you will always have that special place in my heart and life. thank you for tolerating me and all my bullshits after so long. thank you for keeping up with my attitude. thank you for being such a wonderful listener. thank you for always giving me a shoulder to cry on. thank you for being a great sister. thank you for always backing me up and having my back when everyone was bringing me down. thank you for being you. im sorry for always giving you headaches. sorry for always making you worried. sorry for always leaving the room in a mess. sorry for lying to you. sorry for making you feel bad. sorry for not being at home most of the time. sorry for being such a crappy adik.

On this glorious occasion, i hope you are feeling good and happy with your loved ones. i wish you all the good things in life and may you be at the top of your health all the time. Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir & Batin.. Halalkan segala makan, minum, duit and anything that you have given me. Thank you for everything kak meen.

p/s: I LOVE YOU

*sigh*

its been along time since i wrote something in here. so many thigs have changed. too many. well, im single now. life is great. i miss feeling free like this. i do miss him sometimes. but, what the hell, he left me. not the other round. he made up his mind and im just living my life. =)

so many new relationships developed. some got better and some got worse. i dont give a damn. my life anyway. my relationship with man grew stronger. he understands what im going through. such a great friend / brother. love him. me and naqie? no more. the brotherhood..well, lets just say im a sister now. =)

i grew closer to ayie. love her. im losing so much weight due to too much party.. hahaha.. still looking good. no worries. assignments are going great.. long story short, im loving my life now..

i wont be updating much cuz im busy with other things. anyway, raya is coming up. cant wait. (yea right)

ciao!