rock bottom

i have been feeling down lately. i wonder why. is it because im alone? im surrounded by my crazy friends almost all the time. yet, i feel so lonely. i miss being special to someone. i miss being that girl who lights up someone's life everyday. i miss being treated as a princess and pampered as a baby. i miss doing nothing and everything was taken care of by someone else. now its different. im all by myself. i have to everything on my own. i need to make myself feel better when im down. i need to pick myself up when i hit rock bottom. when i look around, everyone around me has that special someone to make them smile. me? i only have beautiful memories which are painful to even think about. i admit, he was the only one who understands me. but we fell apart. maybe its not meant to be. maybe its for the better.

anyway, i have to thank a few people who makes me happy.

ayie-enel-skaki-laji-dan-lulu..you guys are the best.. you never let me down.. i love you guys so so much..

a'bie comel.. syg.. i love you..

kak meen.. i know i have not been around lately, but you're always on top of everyone else.. you will never be replaced.. i love you..

aya, naza.. though we dont talk much, i know both of you are always here with me.. i know how much you care.. thank you for being the best..

ana, ilah, najib.. i dont have you anything.. you know i love you..

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damn! something just hit me..

my lovely beloved seniors are graduating..

kak meen will no longer be with me next sem..

sape nk bebel kt i?

sape nk mintak i buat milo?

sape nk kemas katil i?

sape nk remind i mcm2?

sape nk tlg kejut i?

sape nk jd kakak i??? ='(

miki, fili pon da xde next sem..

i wont have anyone to look up to anymore..

damn im crying..

"all alone again.. thats your life liya. live with it. you've been alone for so long before you met these beautiful people.. back to your old life.. you'll make it.. no worries.. you're a fighter.. always have been and always will be.."