I QUIT

yes, i quit. quit what? quit everything. i quit from all my jobs. what jobs? gawd! so many questions. i quit from being a daughter, a sister, a girlfriend, a friend, a student, a photographer, a designer, everything. i quit from being me.

before i go any further, this post goes out to a few people only. not everyone. they are the ones who lied to me. broke so many promises. played me like a toy. never cared about my feelings. never try to understand me. pretend to care. stand by me when im strong and disappear when im weak. these are the people who hurt me all the time. guess what, I QUIT. im out from your life. you like that dont you? have fun. bye.

random facts

Here are some fun facts. remember, they are facts. true facts.

1. in every average chocolate bar, there are 8 insect legs in it.

2. if you are trying to escape from a crocodile's jaw, push your thumbs into its eyeballs. the croc will let you go instantly.

3. humans blink over 10 m illion times a year!

4. sitting too close to the TV will NOT ruin your eyesight

5. A lump of pure gold the size of a matchbook can be flattened into a sheet the size of a tennis court.

6. Donkeys kill more people annually than plane crashes.

7. Armadillos, opossums, and sloth's spend about 80% of their lives sleeping.

8. The average person has 100,000 hairs on his/her head. Each hair grows about 5 inches (12.7 cm) every year.

9. The plastic things on the end of shoelaces are called aglets.

10. Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning.

there you go..cool facts huh?? now you have new things to share with your friends.. thanx to me..hahaha...

cuti-cuti sana-sini

im feeling much better now. not really, but i'll live. anyway, ive promised you that ill tell about my so called honeymoon and im gona upload some photos of them right? here it goes.

i reached sunway at around 2pm. before that i dropped by at tita's house for lunch. after checking in, i took a shower, freshen up and got ready to go out. where? pyramid la. where else. aisya was waiting for me there. we're meeting up cuz im picking my t-shirt. funny. she was like, "im at the lagoon, there's a coffee shop here." i figured out it was J.Co and after a while, she text me again. "oh, its J.Co.. haha" bleh tahan gak blur die ni.. before i got to her, boyfriend arrived. met up with him first, then we both went to see aisya. we lepak for quite a long time while waiting for adeq and the rest of the gang to find their way out from the lagoon. no, they weren't lost. they just lost track of time. haha. after that, we went shopping. wait, my lovely boyfriend went shopping. i was just helping him choose. money well spent. ;) then we headed for subway. i was starving. the next day we just hang in the room and went swimming. we didnt dare to go to the lagoon due to the heat wave. im not risking myself to another fever. no way hozay. then we went out for makan. Nando's! finally i get to eat them. been craving for a long time. asal nk pegi, ade je halangan. we ordered 3 set of 1/4 chickens. hehe. kenyang!!! then we went for a movie. pastu back to the hotel room. 

 

 

 

that's my new bikini. the guy is my love, my apek and my heartbeat. that's the t-shirt i bought from aisya.

oh, last night i went to Sunway Hotel Penang. my mom was sick. so i went on her behalf. it was the F&B trainee party. good thing  have friends working there. haha. ooh!! i was one of the lucky draw winners. guess what i won??

L-R: Linda, Julian, Shaq, Citra, Roro, Myself

yes people.. i won a  face towel. a Carlsberg face towel. its green! hehe.

for more pictures, check out my facebook aite people!!!

*sigh*

people. im back. the short trip to KL was fun. i miss him already. but im not in a good mood right now. ill write later and upload photos. when im feeling better. not now. see you.

i so hate myself right now. life is so freakin unfair. fuck.

random

today was nothing much. boyfriend cut his hair. hope he looks ok. die ckp mcm bdak skolah. damn. im super excited. driving to KL 2moro with along, haqim, mama and aniq. yes. the best and the most annoying cousin ever. my big brother. he's finally coming along on my crazy trips. mama is having her meetings. yang lain tu menyibuk je. aniq's birthday is coming up. we're celebrating it there. and fatin's model search thingy. good luck to her. she's pretty. she'll be fine i guess.

oh! about the kuatberlakon contest. faiz said the link was not working. here, try this --> VOTE

i checked and he is currently at #5.. keep voting  my dear friends!!

b, u pon kena vote!!! faiz ni ex-YDP masscomm k.. the best ever!!! die bnyk tolong i kt campus.. klau u syg i, u vote! hehe..

tido-tido!!! sok nk drive.. goodnite..

peace

p/s: i love you

VOTE for DICKIE!!!

senior kesayanganku, nasrul faiz joined the competition kuat berlakon by afdlin shauki. since i love him so much and i want him to win, please vote for him~!!! how?? click here --> VOTE 

good luck dickie!! ill vote everytime i go online..

Killjoy

today was no fun. i went all the way to buy what his cousin asked for. irmi helped carried the things. thanx. sent him back home, i went home. got into a huge fight. i cried and made myself looked ugly. he still doesnt care. sometimes i feel like letting go of everything and just let myself slip away. maybe im not good enough for him. maybe i should let him free. then maybe he'll find someone thats better than me and could make him happy. but i cant breathe thinking about life without him. i am currently 99% suicidal. everyone is sleeping. i have a kitchen knife in my hand for some weird reasons. i am trembling with fear and sadness. im on the edge of breaking down. when i do, things wont be so pretty. i gave everything i could to everyone. it wasnt enough. never is. never will be. i dont fit in. never did. never will. maybe i should just make way for new life. do you know how to do that? no? this explains it. death open up ways for new life. how i interpret that? kill myself, someone else would live. maybe that person deserves it more and maybe that person will live it way better than me. wait and see. im not sure if he still reads my blog. just a test. b, if u baca blog i, make a random phone call to my celcom number and tell me something that you read / saw in my blog. *sigh* i dont think he does. i pour out my feelings here. if he does, he should understand how i feel. dah la. sedih lama2 sorg2 pon tak jadi apa2. baik buat something. 

oh! thanx to those people who said will always be there when i need someone to talk to. you guys are NEVER there. thank you very much. im depressed. its your fault.

peace

p/s: I ALWAYS LOVE YOU

insomnia

guess what. its almost 5am and im still here. cant sleep. kept thinking about him. and everything else. i was at the edge just now. ili said something that made me felt a bit better. i still cant let go of what happened. call me OCD. i dont care. i am obsessed about him. i love him. i was going through pictures and editing some of them cuz i wana blow them up and print them as a gift for my whole family. then i saw these.

see this? this was the first night i met all of them. i went to meet up with ajib. the guy standing behind me. we were together back then. but look at this. who was i sitting on? yes. exactly. it was like it was already written that we're gona be together. he took care of me most of the time we hang out. that ajib guy was always pre-occupied with something else.

 

 

look at these photos. we had so much fun. the first 2 was in Genting. the last 2 was in Tg.Bidara during fasting month! haha. yeah, they sent me back to melaka cuz i almost got into a car crash. thanx againakim and edi. anyway, my point is that no matter how badly we fight, we're perfect for each other. he is my other half. he completes me. just look at my smiles in those pictures. those weren't fake. i came from my heart. i forgot how it feels like right now. i just want that feeling back. thats all.

i love you sayang.

i miss you very much.

peace