random

1. Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
~my forehead

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
yay! Kellie's Castle!!!

3. Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?
~along

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?
~yes..

5. Will you ever donate blood?
~im underweight..i cant donate

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
~yes..dont know what happened to the friendship

7. Do you want someone to be dead?
~oh! there are so many people that i hate, and i want them dead

8. What does your last text message say?
~if you dont call in the  next 5 minutes, ill take it as a goodbye

9. What are you thinking right now?
~Muhammad Hazwan bin Suhaimi and the fact that he's not here

10. Do you want someone to be with you right now?
~desperately..YES...

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
~4am

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
~i didnt buy this..KOLAH yg kasi baju ni...

13. Is someone on your mind right now?
~yes..PUTAI

14. Who was the last person who text you?
~HOTLINK

Ten lucky person to do this quiz:
1.aisya

2.tia

3.dabuldahi @ hadi

4.faiz fuad

5.faiz KOMED!

6.firas

7.tasnim lokman

8.eleen (xtau eja)

9.bryan

10.ain @bedah

15. Who is no.2 having relationship with?
~she was with hakim..they look good together..*sigh*

16. Is no.3 a male or a female?
~jinatang jantan..MALE

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together , would it be a good?
~i think they do now each other..i bet it'd be good! they'd PARTY!!!

18. What is no.1 studying about?
~she's a mass comm diploma graduate from KDU

19. When was the last time you chatted with them?
~dont know..you can call me DORY...

20. Is no.4 single?
~not sure..he didnt say anything about a girl.. hmm..

21. Say something about no.2
~KDU mass comm student

22. What do you think about no.2 and no.6 being together?
~WHAT DA FUCK?!! NEVER.. he's too young!!! and she's NOT a pedophile

23. Describe no.9
~the hottest DIVA in UiTM Melaka!!!

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight?
~why would they fight? they dont even know each other..

25. Do you like no.8?
~never met her..i think she's abg eddy's lil sister..

>NOW, YOU'VE BEEN TAGGED! YOUR TURN!!<

awesome

Kellie's Castle was BEAUTIFUL!!! i want a house, i mean a mansion like that. Sir William Kellie Smith wanted to build that mansion for his family. the workers died out of Spanish influenza. so did he. he died on the way to Portugal. his wife sold the land to some other guy. well, all that does not matter. the real thing that matters is, that building is unfinished and yet it is so damn bloody beautiful. im not going to upload all the pictures here or in my facebook. but there'll be more in my facebook compared to here in my blog. ;) here's a picture of me and my family..

what a nice family photo huh?? remember the song family potrait?? yeah, think about that while looking at this.. *sigh*

2moro is karaoke night with the family. gathering and shit. steambot. nasib baik food sedap, klau tak, harapan la aku nak dok umah.. i dont enjoy this crap that much. i just want to go out on some adventure with my dad. thats all. oh, i bought a new bikini today. tak sengaja. hehehe. Sunway Lagoon, im coming. wait for me. ish, teringat kt apek tu. im fighting with him. right this moment, he is there doing something i clearly said NO to. fuck it. he doesnt care. why should i. if anything bad were to happen, his life is getting screwed, NOT mine. im doing fine thank you very much. i wonder. is he faking it? he lied about so many things. i wonder if he is even real. i mean, he is obviously a good liar. i can usually see through people. not him. i saw what he shows, or potrays. oh, screw him. i know one day im gona look at him and say "i told you so".. that happened so many times already. he never gets it. never. lantak la. your life. im doing well with mine. i try to help you. but if you DONT WANT TO HELP YOURSELF, there's nothing i can do about it.

peace

p/s: I STILL LOVE YOU... though im kinda sick of you now, i still do.

L O V E

I found these pictures of us in my old blog. i deleted everything when he left me. yeah, thousands of pictures. *sigh* well, at least i have the ones we took in PD. our vacation. loved it. it was nothing much. but i love it. now that we're back together, i regret deletinig every effin thing. damn you stupid break up. doesnt matter now. im in love.

kantoi abes that he is freakin VAIN!!! hahaha.. 

i should be in bed now. wait, i need to check on a few things.

1. charged my camera

2. emptied the flash card

3. pack for road trip

4. sleep early

well, obviously ive failed the 4th one. haha. yeah! Kellie's Castle, here i come!

peace.

'tak nak bgtau' by ajam

i was going through my old blog and i found this.. lyrics to a song that has not been released yet.. the guy who wrote this, he's famous now.. he wrote this a long time ago.. it means alot to me and i really can relate to this..  i just want to say that i hope he does well and one day, this song will be out..

aku tak menyangka 

begini akhirnya

cerita indah kita bersama

sukar unutuk percaya

tergamaknya aku

menghembus kata itu padamu

namun engkau tahu

semua itu

bukanlah untukku

sejujurnya 

aku tahu apa berlaku

dibelakangku

selama ini

ku pejamkan mata

tapi sampai bila

aku kan membisu untukmu

namun engkau tahu

ku tetap menyayangimu selamanya

anyway, i dedicate this song to my boyfriend..a while ago.. sayang, read this again and again.. hope things will change..

lies...

our relationship was based on lies. u lied to me all the time. i always thought you were the best because you were always there listening to me. nobody else could do it. now i know. you are just likethe others. you never did listen. thats why you still dont understand me. everytime i tell you a story of my past, u pretend to listen. no wonder you're clueless. no wonder you dont know me even after a year. im just so damn heartbroken now. never thought you were like the other guys ive dated. always thought that you're different and special. what was i thinking. damn it. im fooled and blinded by love. a love story that im alone in it. fuck. how could i be so stupid. i am stupid right? im dumb cuz i love you. im stupid cuz i care about you. and im blind cuz its happening right under my nose but yet, im changing nothing. actually, i refuse to see it. why dont you ever tell me the truth?? why?? i dont know what to believe now. i have absolutely nothing, not a single fucking thing to hold on to. this is not easy. im tired of crying and holding back my tears when im on the phone with you. yes, everytime we were on the phone this past few weeks, i held back my tears. cuz i know if i let it out, you'd say om annoying and irritating. and you'd just hang up. why are you doing this to me? why? 

p/s: I LOVE YOU..regardless all the pain you caused.

re-inspired

i was going through firas' blog just now. came across a few posts that sounded like what i used to write. haha. yeah, i understand you kiddo. you can include me with your sisters and ammani now. i totally get what you're saying. that was how we got close to each other, remember? we were going on and on about this stupid typical malay mindset and thinking. how stupid and lame they are. how much we hate meLAYU. i mean, i dont hate malay people in general. i just hate the ones who lives up to the word MELAYU. the typical thinking would be so shallow and simply dumb. im gona write on my observations after this. thanx firas for giving my booze back. now i remember why i was once a great writer. and a cynical one too. *wink* cant wait for aisya's t-shirt launch. all the best to her!!! hey, support her  aite?? at least she's doin something aren't like you guys who are always on your fat/skinny ass doin nothin and get wasted. well, boyfriend is asleep. he ignored me the whole day. i wonder if he really went out for football or he was messing around with someone. hmmm. who knows. i dont even know what's real right now. fuck it. see you. ciao!

im not perfect

yes, i know im not perfect. nobody is. in fact, nobody will ever be. im sorry im always telling you this and that. im not trying to be bossy. im just looking out for you. i want the best for you. i dont want you to repeat the same mistakes that i did. im right. damn it im fucking right. my only mistake is that i love you too much that im just trying to protect you from screwing up like i did. i know right now it seems like im nagging too much, im always on your back, always trying to stop you from having fun. trust me, one day, IF you fall, you'd turn back and wish that youwould have listened to me. and i was damn right. 

p/s: I LOVE YOU...ALWAYS

pukimak

ive been away. that explains why i didnt post anything. its been a while since i last checked my fb and ms. guess what, that bitch 'siti sarah' is using my name now. and my birthday. she answered MY quiz and scored 100%. i dont know who that is YET. im gona find out. and when i do, that bitch will beg me for mercy and wish she was never born. yeah! rott i hell fucker! ill see you there.. you guys must be a bit lost on this one right? yeah, i wont give out any details.

life has been good lately. everything seems to fall into place. my relationship with him is getting so much better. we taught ourselves a lot. yup. lesson learned. haha. i dont want to screw up again. he's the best thing ever. i love you sayang. wait, im kinda mat at you now cuz you overslept and you missed class. thats bad. you are grounded baby! haha. oh well, no point. i know you're gona find an excuse to go out and hang out in hakim's place. whatever makes you happy sayang. just dont skip classes again.

p/s: I LOVE YOU