is it worth it?

what i have..is it worth fighting for? i've been fighting my whole life. i chased everything i want. when i've reached it, i need to fight for it. its been a life-long battle. a fight that after so long, i've finally lost. i accept my defeat but im dissapointed because i ws fighting alone. the one who was supposed to fight alongside with me never tried. he accepted the lost way before he started fighting. 13 months of fighting turned to dust when defeat came without a warning. he turned away when i was fighting with all my might. blood, sweat and tears were wasted just like that when he turned away and gave up th fight. frustrated. dissapointed. crushed. i need to get a grip. im falling down too fast. i will not survive when i hit the ground. get a grip liya. hold on to something.