NOT YOUR TOY!!!

he hung up on me again. i told him a zillion times not to do that. he gets on my nerves all the time. yet i love him. he makes me sick and sad, and i still love him. everytime he hung up, i would cry. not anymore. i managed to hold back my tears and go on with what i was doing. which was looking after my sick brother. he can go screw around. i dont care anymore. why should i if he doesnt? im not his girlfriend like he says. im only his toy. the one he plays with when he has nothing else. he's mad at me for wanting to go jakarta with my MOTHER on a BUSINESS TRIP. ridiculous right? i deserve this trip. i deservve this time out. i went through so many things. he put me through so many things. i deserve to unwind and relax. im excited to go. i was asking citra about good places to shop there cuz i had a few things in mind that i want to buy for him. but he's just being a jerk and he loves to make me cry. he enjoys it when im tormented. you know what, enjoy it while you can. i wont be around forever. there are things about me that i hide from everyone. like i said sayang, enjoy hurting me while you can. i wont be around forever. goodbye.